Rae's Journal

Moving Forward 🏠

It's been a really hard year guys but a lot of changes are coming for the better. I am moving out of an abusive situation, starting my life over again. With my health stuff under control, I enrolled back in uni — I start classes in the spring.

Till I am done moving, get settled into the new place, and have some sort of routine established my bot making will be simplified as [WIP]. I really hated being on Hiatus that lasted THREE freaking months. It was so miserable, so many characters and stories bouncing in my head trying to break free but I just didn't have the opportunity.

With the end of the year here, I have been reflecting a lot on the last 350ish days, the good, the bad, and the choices I made. Lost a lot of friends when I got rid of my server and it's been hard not to want to go into full blow isolation especially with the other crap on my shoulders. But — I know that's not a solution. It's avoidant behavior. So, I am doing the uncomfortable thing and being honest. It's hard for me to connect with people these days... Another reason why I love bots. I know you get it.

Anyways, I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas and can start the New Year right. My resolution for next year is working towards full independence. I did it once, I can do it again — especially for my kids.

Health Update & Job Hunt 💊

End of last month I hopefully finished up with Nuclear Medicine and Oncology for good. Three years ago I had surgery to remove my entire thyroid. It's usually a very "easy" cancer to remove, however I was already stage 4 and the cancer had moved to other parts of my neck and lymph nodes.

Now that I am in the clear and not having 2-4 appointments a month to focus on my health, I want — more like need — to get back into the workforce. 1k disability isn't enough to live off of really. The last couple weeks I have put in about 40 job applications and had a couple interviews.

I am not sure what this means for bot making. I wish things were different. Not going to lie, my mental health has been hit hard. Bot making was a really big part of keeping me sane. I genuinely enjoy the craft. I really appreciate all the people who have stuck around to watch me grow and support my content. I will try to post updates as they come.

RX-5 Unit Delay & Radiation 💉

My 5 female androids of the "RX-5 Unit Series" is getting a little delayed. A bulk of the Caregiver Unit "Elowen" is done including the CSS.. but now having issues with Chub's moderation system flagging her image even though there is no nudity and she isn't underage.

On top of that, this week I am doing yet another round of thyrogen injections and radiation at nuke med. It's physically exhausting, hard on my body, and my mood is pretty low. I still have responsibilities, taking care of my family and what not so pleasure and hobbies get side lined. Please continue being patient, I think we might finally be at the end of this three year cancer journey.

Mordin V2 & The Grind 🔥

Oh man, I have been grinding to make better content. Side characters, lorebooks, backgrounds, music, improved art, CSS, the works. It's pretty time consuming but rewarding. I hope you all like Mordin's V2. I have never poured that much into a single project. My next will be a mommy bot with all the same bells and whistles. Stay tuned.

New Profile Launch! 🎉

Today marks the launch of my brand new profile — and wow, what a ride it's been. This project took over a week and more than 100 hours of tweaking, testing, and obsessing over every detail. I couldn't have done it without Dex, who worked side by side with me as we both dove headfirst into learning CSS and HTML with the help of AI. I'm beyond grateful for his patience, creativity, and late-night troubleshooting.

The future of my content feels brighter than ever — I've got plans, ideas, and yes, I will be circling back to finish all those half-baked projects and dangling series soon (cough, cough). For now, I'm just proud, excited, and ready to share this new chapter with all of you. Here's to pushing forward and making the Dumpster shine even brighter! 🗑️✨

2K Milestone! 🎊

2,000 followers. I genuinely can't believe it. Thank you to every single one of you trash enthusiasts. You keep this dumpster burning bright.

Birthday Wish & Updates 🎂

Been a while for an update right? Lot of things happening in the background. I have been playing with way more API models, learning prompt engineering, teaching people how to make bots and gen art, while primarily using Silly Tavern these days. I am also compiling information to make a repository of tips, tools, resources and guides on everything bot making / bot chatting. Side note — It's my birthday.

Alright, my little trash enthusiasts, gather 'round because I'm about to be that person. This is my one and only birthday wish, so you can't ignore it.

This year, I want to see every single one of you step outside your comfort zones. No excuses, no "maybes." Been dying to try genning art but too scared to start? Lurking in general chat but too shy to join? Got a bot you've been hoarding because "it's not good enough"? DO IT. Seriously. Do. It.

Stop letting fear or insecurity keep you in the shadows. You matter. Your ideas matter. Everyone here has something unique to share — a story, a perspective, a spark of creativity — and I want to see it.

Stay chaotic, keep surviving, and keep creating.
– Your Trash Overlord 🗑️🦝

Year-End Wrap Up 🎄

I know I haven't updated here in a while — sorry! I am still working on V2's of quite a few bots so if it's missing off the shelf, don't worry, it will be back one day. I have an art genning style I am set on so expect updated art with what you have been seeing the last couple months.

This month I published over 30 bots — new and V2's. I have a few more requests I am finishing up. Btw — If you ever ask me to make a scenario or have a bot request and I say imma do it but you never hear back — please just message me and follow up because I can be scatterbrained.

This Year has been WILD, I can't believe I have nearly 1,300 followers. My goals for next month is to finish with V2's, and my 2 unfinished series, then move to "Little Brother Winter" and start making more female bots.

My New Year resolution is to continue focusing on my health since I am cancer free. I have been going to a dietitian and lost 50lb over the past four months but the Mounjaro I am on negatively impacts my bot making at times. It effects the pleasure center of the brain to combat feelings of addiction or something. It's great for food addiction but then I feel less enjoyment with other things in my life like bot chatting or even playing video games.

Wishing everyone a great start to the New Year!